Stay

Stay, don't go.
don't dare walk away.
can you not feel my hands...
tugging... pulling you back.
as i often did as a child.
i still need you in my life.
i've nowhere to go.
Stay, don't go...

don't turn your back to me.
draw me close...
let me feel your warmth.
stay, don't go.
so near and dear you are to me...
you fulfill my heart.
my voids left bleeding open.
earthly wounds, I’m shattered and broken
you bandage
mend…
heal.
make anew.
stay, don't go...
i'm begging.... pleading.
with every fiber in my soul.
I can't do this alone.
don't you see ?
how dependent i am of you...
you know the true me...
you see me...
when i'm sooooo invisible.
hurt and wound...
you hold me and look for me...
when i'm far away....
and i know you miss me...
for i can feel it too.
your love is so tender....
stay, don't go.
strong i most certainly am not...
for there is weakness in my heart.
i cower and cry....
run and disappear...
build walls around my heart...
collapse bridges.
preventing others
from getting too close.
in fear hurt may befall me...
oh how i feel so small...
i can't handle this.....
i don't know how.
stay, don't go.
you tear away my defenses.
exposing raw flesh; my soul...
allowing the sadness and sorrow
to leak and pour out.
oh how mournful...
life seems now.
stay, don't go.
But oh how you weeped..
how you wept.
bled and died for me.
you surely tried to save me
from those terrible wounds.
Stay, don't go.
sacrificing so much...
only to allow me
a chance to bloom.
you wove me into your arms...
mending
loving
healing
me...
from all these cruel adversaries ....
stay, don't go...
surely i shall crumble...
truly i know i will falter....
for i know...
without you.
i shall not survive...
stay, don't go...
her death wounded me so...
you saw it in my eyes...
how color faded
dark.
but yours, will truly put me under.
more then just a spell...
but this time...
i shall be lost forever.
stay, don't go.
i depend on you more then you know.
you keep my alive...
raise me from the depths
of my shadowy gloom
you know how dark i get...
yet, you keep me aglow.
teaching me to laugh...
forgive what i can't...
smile through brokenness.
and so, i felt again.
stay, don't go...
my gardens you bring into bloom.
bathing in your glorious warmth
your light...
your sunshine splendor.
you instill life and wonder....
in all earthly creatures and nature.
stay, don't go.
there, in my roots...
from seed, you grew me...
you make me grow strong.
so i may one day...
stand tall and proud.
against harsh winds and wills....
that yearn to make me bend and surrender.
stay, don't go...
i don't know how be alright.
i don't know how to live life.
i don't believe in faith....
or anything that requires
self-strength....
stay, don't go.
i don't know how to smile
or laugh...
or feel anything else
but my hollowness.
i don't know what's best...
i don’t know wrong from right.
i don't know where to turn...
when forks presents themselves…
in my unintended wanderlust road.
Oh how I shall roam.
Aimlessly among vagabonds and drifters...
Is this what I will become….?
how will i know?
stay, don't go.
who shall come for me...
in the depths of the night.
when all is dark...
where i lie cold and in fright.
my dreams tear at reality.
whom shall chase away my demons...
stay, don't go.
god wont allow me into his gates...
i'm not worthy enough ...
i'm disdainful ...
i tell lies....
i don't live truly.
let alone fully.
i need your wisdom.
... more time.
stay, don't go.
i need you in my life...
i need to know i'll be alright.
i'm breaking....
aching....
deeper this wound grows...
seeping through, is the cold....
can you not hear my pleas...?
look at me…
your only baby girl….
stay, don't go....
daddy don't dare leave me.
stay.
don't go.