faces and hearts.

jabber jabber. yak yak
laughs float through grease clouded air.
a table with chairs.
occupied by acquainted faces.
a comforting company.
to share and give care.
dinner is served, on trays and sassy air.
a tease and a taunt.
chair pulls out.
a window seat watch.
unfiltered words...
waft over to a girl.
striking a chord.
denial and attempts,
of pushing back.
now surface and overwhelm.
hearts weighted with earthly woes.
break now.
let your tears fall.
hurry, amass.
run,
walk.
escape this crowd.
hastily now,
before someone glimpses
a distorted image.
defined as your true self.
interpersonal hurt...
fears of a coming now.
course of direction,
skewed.
undetermined.
peddle peddle.
breathe deep.
passing street lights.
rounding corners.
late night wanderers.
lungs burn and body groans.
pleading for a pause.
thoughts too wild for a moment's stop.
unintended courage...
leads to darken back roads
sketchy alleys with noises...
back into the light.
dorm room delight.
faces, common and known.
hurry now...
through elevator doors.
grab a towel.
shower off.
music to relax.
ignore squealing facets.
doors open, sea of faces.
well holy fucking shit.
tears emerging once again.
too proud to cry out.
steady yourself. stay strong.
wear the mask...
don't dare breakdown.
say its alright.
hope they just go.
leave me in peace.
there's worry and concern.
adorning perplex faces.
you know they care...
honestly honey dears...
its all internal.
forgive me for my lack.
of communicating and such.
i've been breaking.
my heart's been aching.
one by one...
you search, seek out
confess to clear air.
there's hurt in their eyes.
and guilt in your heart.
another weighing scar.
you never meant for.
they stay...
people gather in.
you wander again.
to watch for lighting's rain.
sing apologies....
rarely do i.
unless sincerity is a must.
comfort in the physical facts.
there's hope in the hearts.
of honest friendship.