Cowards Way

Turn of events.
leaves me lost, i confess
should i embrace.
past, unexpected pretense.
a choice in whether.
to stay or to leave.
fears of insecure disappointments.
and leaps of petty faith.
history states,
hearts do break.
a tendency in your life.
for you once loved your last.
memories surface again.
plummeting back into your past.

remember... reflect.
for you've pushed your hurt to the back.
feel it now...
the hurt, the pain.
the let down and heartache.
feel it now...
torn and losing who you are.
the betrayal and devastating hate.
feel it now...
the good and the bad.
the love, the laughs.
the thrill of sneaking kisses.
how he held you in his farm boy embrace.
how your hair whirled all around.
when he twirled you in his arms.
feel it now...
the nervous waits, of secret meetings.
name it... time and place.
the anticipating suspense.
the rush of emotions...
a heart tumbling,
some consider it, falling in love.
remember... reflect.
unfolding his love letters.
as you found them hidden,
in your locker or notebooks.
how you rolled your eyes.
as you tried to decipher,
his scrawled handwriting...
drawing out his honest feelings.
oh how you smiled,
as you read his written poetry.
how it made you feel.
as if you were the only one.
spoken words, thought to be true.
a youthful promise.
meant for a forever.
like hearts...
promises break.
as did that love...
for it left you aching
gasping for air.
since that day...
you've hidden your heart.
for it turned you colder then hurt.
a wall around your heart.
guarded and fortified strong.
allowing for none,
to wander or love.
rather turn and run.
beat'em to the punch.
then wait and play it out.
a cowards ways.
of staying safe.
high and dry...
risks, you think not to take.
loneliness, a suiting fit.
for rejections and loose ends.
your heart just can't take.