Fool

There's a lot of things.
petty, grand or small.
all in which bring me down.
a burden to my heart.
like how to live life.
in regards to how to be alright...
simple things.
come in various difficulties.
i've forgotten how to smile.
or what its like to try.
i've lost all hope.
motivation fled long ago.
i've forgotten how to laugh.
free and careless.
i've forgotten how to love.
fiercely and true.
i've forgotten who i am.
all because of you....
my happiness falters.
for worldly turmoil harbors.
dangers and snares.
around each and every corner.
ploys and plots.
thought and planned out.
ignorant of me...
to think kindly of so many.
i should have known...
harm would befall me.
for here i am.
at odds end.
guilt stricken and shamed.
a thicket of thorns.
i've found myself entangled.
no use in fighting.
for trying only causes
predetermined failure in the end.
hearts grow cold.
disappointment grows.
save face.
i dare not cry out.
whom shall see...
or come to save.
metaphoric display.
a applaud you, darling dear.
for a fool i most certainly am.