Thing

Who am i…
Are you to whom.
We are they,
whom they who.
A you of i.
A you of me.
entities of whom, thing.
Object to noun.
Subject...
Go.
Do.
Seek.
love.
Verb.
To do…
Person, place, thing.

Dream

Reason’s as to why,
Once upon a time,
All but in a dream.
Search for a seek.
film noir,
black silence that speaks.
Conquistador in disguise.
Rampage running wild.
Fears of a storming mess,
Bring forth different shades of dread.
Shadows that dance,
to the beat of a ceiling fan.
Oh how they swirl.
How they twirl aloft the mayhem.
Though hidden within the gloom…
Lies a panicking you…
Be still, child of the moon.
For you hold a peaceful sleeping beau.

Mutual

come now common grounds.
Compromise is a sure shot miss.
An Annie Oakley target hit.
Bullet short of shy.
Bullseye.
Falter…
You die.

Kind Heart Love

Speak to me…
Of song and love.
Say to me…
Oh ignorant one.
Sing to me…
Kind heart love.
Show to me…
Oh lonesome one,
sigh with me…
Tattered and torn.
Share with me…
Love undone.
stay with me…
Fool that weeps.
speak to me…
kind heart love.

End

Rather would I,
Choose death over die.
Plead beg nor pardon.
Wistful am i…
A vow.
Plot of plan.
Once upon a time.
Come round again.
Battles won,
Cease begun,
Carry on.
End a done.

Cent Worth

Toss or fall
Fate knows all.
Penny drop hope.
Justification…
A petty heart confirmation...
Controversial conclusion.
Subtlety need not presume .
fate lies within metals.
An earthly elemental belief
Walk on.
Sea salt hope.
innocence breeds ignorance.
Enlighten such imprudent discreet.
Luck is as its fortune.
Lonesome a lowly sum
To be prized a future’s worth.

Novelty

Shallow steps.
Backwards hurt.
Pulse but a halt..
Hasten hollow heart…
Do I dare.
Dare I do…
Inevitability,
Be it, but true.
Bested a brave.
Nobility…
a fleeting shame.
weary a game.
Novelty meant not for pain.
Though deemed with a name.
An earthy sullen heartache.

Denied

love me fierce,
surrender arms.
hold my heart.
break me down.
promise me not.
fear the fall.
Swear it not.
I implore.
conclud vow.
present now.
love me fierce.
Love me now.
for i am you.
a you of i.
elements needed.
though denied.

Come Home

Ring round corner’s edge.
flicker light.
Candle smell.
Soup noodle,
Room fancy fill.
Little lass…
Sofa seat sit.
Hearts go knock.
Lonely bones do miss.
Ring round corner’s edge.
Flicker light.
We here are.
Together again.

Kind heart

Good intent.
lost in pretense
Scorned as its oath
Inevitability
Shamed like fickle hope.
Lay with lies.
Truth be devised.

Lie be true

fiercely now,
passion love.
unafraid...
chances take...
pre-fade,
poison thoughts,
subdue,
external want...
raw,
expose
human heart.
soul be not.
hasten breath.
tears let fall.
tis be true.
i do.

Compass

Spin round…
Flutter off.
anchor down,
urgent now,
shore side hope.
harbor heart.
Patient now…
Leap or plunge…
Neither foreseen.
Follow not,
sincere heart.
compass map…
arrow away.
Shimmer, flicker….
Telescope eyes.
Horizon skies,
Bottle light,
Drink it down…
Drain it out.
far off thought.
Wistful low.
Tick, tock..
destined walk.
Roots be it not…
Bound familiar grounds.

Pattern

There a then.
Come round again.
Present past tense…
Articulates obvious.
Coy hints,
Perplexing coherence.
common configuration,
coincidental circumstances.
Compensate commensurate.
Nostalgia inaugurates.
Momentary tempo.
Parallel analogy.
Callus conclusion.

Pitter Patter

Drop

Pitter patter
Drop drop drop.
Be there no halt.
sadistic earthy lull.
Symphonies sound.
atmospheric dirge…
howling mor n,
Reverberate round.
Streaming now…
Reverse your heart.
Fire out spark.
Go it out.

Letter

Dearest Lover,

Paint me a letter,
where words dance and flicker.
across a sea of parchment paper…
splatter ink and lead…
brush or feather tip artisan .
Bind mine flesh,
permanent as is its intention.
Brilliance and wonder….
Let it cascade like liquid fire…
Amidst graying sea faring weathers.
Perhaps humble is as its pride…
Shamed like still frame splendor.
Say to me as if sirens sing…
A vow…
A kiss…
A promise...
Say to me…
words not of a wanderlust sea…
Say to me…
for weary I am…
Though honed with a patient content…
Say to me…
by means of a floating message,
drifting in the bobbing breeze…
Say to me…
dearest lover…
I am yours,
of safe keep.
Say to me…


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2 for 2

tiddle tat... yap yap yap.
there's a deeper depth,
to that inquiring fact.
true or false...
yes or no...
here we go....
a destined future,
unclear as it is uncertain....
fate knew it best...
leaving us,
pondering and perplexed.
snare and tares...
combat our hearts.
hold steady love...
we've just begun.
for there's truth to that trust...
given with time,
a soon learning...
turns to an understanding.
tiddle tat... yap yap yap.
goodness knows...
where i'd be without my better half

Anniversary

a moment...
a memory...
a bittersweet reverie.
a choice...
in whether to weep or shine.
a moment.
a memory.
a bittersweet reverie.
a choice....
in whether to wallow or press on.
a moment.
a memory.
a bittersweet reverie.
a choice...
in whether to grieve or rejoice aloud.
a moment.
a memory.
a bittersweet reverie.
a choice...
with no farewells or goodbyes.
a moment
a memory
a bittersweet reverie.
a choice...
with no regrets, just smiles.
a moment
a memory
a bittersweet reverie
a choice...
to make anew...
a beautiful moment, once in a lifetime....
a happy memory in this now and present time.
a bittersweet acceptance...
that the past shall never fade,
let alone, change its destined ways.
a choice..... to love again.
with passion so tender, yet fierce.
moments and memories...
both bitter and sweet.
a choice in whether...
you take a chance..... at such things

Scam

Come round love.
there's a tick to our tock.
time and its heartbeat of a clock.
stop, pause, end...
only to start again.
come round love.
with flowers and poems of us.
for we travel those roads...
familiar and foreign to us.
wind blown hair,
a hot mess of wtf...
while tunes swirl and twirl
to the melody our voices sound out.
come a day or night...
or a present now,
to a future's destined sight.
falter we shan't...
for we're too stubborn for that...
come round love...
time has once again struck.

Where

to where is where.
were it there.
where there were.
were there
to where is where.
where it were there...
there is where...

Age

window pane chills...
whisper and glide.
a gentle goodmorning kiss.
awaken weary eyes.
from a summer time glow,
to a soon coming snow...
seasons of old...
change and give way,
meant to age and wise.
though rhythms and rhymes...
hum ever in time...

Poor Girl

penny for your pocket...
store it away...
for a hopeful thought.
just a looked over glance.
and a walk away pass.
a present now presents...
treasure seeking demands.

Fight.

Sometimes I run,
leaving no fore warning goodbye.
Sometimes I hide,
disappear in the blink of an eye.
Sometimes my lips say hush,
for with you, I cannot lie.
Sometimes i fade.
for i have a tendency of pushing people away.
Sometimes I shy,
in fear you might see me cry.
Sometimes I’m angry,
a silent simmering.
Sometimes I hurt,
Expressed best, a frightful rampage.
Sometimes my silence…
Rings louder than its monotone meaning.
Sometimes I’m spiteful,
Darling dear it’s really sadness.
Sometimes I’m frustrated,
For I expect you should know how to fix me.
Sometimes I’m disappointed,
For I expect you should already know what I’m thinking.
Sometimes I’m desperate,
In hopes you’d just find me out.
Sometimes I’m worried,
That someday you’ll give up on me.
Sometimes I fear,
my pandora of a box shall escape me...
Sometimes I’m confusing,
For a conclusion is still in the making.
Sometimes what I mean,
Is perceived as another thing.
Sometimes I cower,
For to arms, you are with your walls.
Sometimes I’m bruised,
Left by your unconscious doings.
Sometimes I’m annoyed,
For at times, you haven’t a clue.
Sometimes I’m stubborn,
Then again pride plays us the fool.
Sometimes I know I hurt you,
Darling dear it’s never intentional.
Sometimes I’m the fool,
For I should know you better.
Sometimes I keep things from you,
for to me, its nothing more or less
Sometimes my attempts at being brave,
Is a farce and fallacy.
Sometimes I can’t explain,
Darling dear it isn’t that I don’t care…
Its because I feel you shouldn’t ….
Sometimes I forget who I am.
Then you say you care, bringing me back around again.
Sometimes I try,
To figure it out, find a way…
Sometimes in the process,
I lose sight of those around me.
Sometimes I forget your needs,
Causing you days worth of grief’s.
Sometimes I run from you,
For at times, you know me so well.
Sometimes I’m left baffled,
When you say you care and reach out.
Sometimes I’m thankful,
You care enough to even stick around.
Sometimes I hate,
for you discover all my hidden ways.
Sometimes I love,
For you know me all too well.
Sometimes I write poems,
Like this sappy one right here.
Sometimes what I’m trying to say.
Is I’m sorry for being Sam and thank you for being a friend…
Sometimes what I mean is…
I love you.

Serendipty

There’s a tick to that tock.
A beating in the heart.
Rhythms so alive.
Melodies rejoice…
Harmonize in time,
Jovial and alive.
Our voices intertwine...
A nearness growing close.
For fondness grew with time.
Freudian slips, escape loose lips.
Sharp is our wit.
For there’s boldness
Adorn with a stubborn kiss.
A sass that spits back.
As flirts lightly tease…
If indeed perceived.
Darling dear…
Read not surface deep.
For there’s depth to my being.
Learned and discovered…
Reflections mirror one another.
A curious rarity….
For scarcity is a fortunate find.
Accidental.
Coincidental….
Call it serendipity if you like,
A pleasant and fortunate find.
fate left destiny at odds.
For a spontaneous chance at life.
for funny a find.
that such events,
bring to light.
two souls, so alike.

Fecundity

If truth were to be told.
I’ve lied and denied you so.
Stood from afar,
Walls up,
To arms to arms.
Guarded and on edge.
Awaiting day light’s siren call.
I’ve held back,
Silenced my thoughts.
Tis be true, I still feel as I do.
Honest and sincere…
I’ve been in love you my dear.
From day one in the hall…
To our present now.
Life has an intriguing way…
of coming round…
reuniting …
what was always meant.
For fate was our destined path.
A smile and nod….
Swiftly turns to a kiss and a hug.
A flame growing brighter.
Warmer and richer…
with each and every melody.
Moments and time…
Well spent with laughs and taunts.
Oh how I shall miss you.
My darling dear,
Sweetheart and dearest honey.
Though words still left unspoken…
Late nights pondering over.
My darling dear you should know.
I love you….
Forever I shall.
And always I will.
So much and ever more.
It’ll always be you.
Though, I know where I stand.
For I respect and care for you so…
All too much to want more.
So I shall be gladdened in our friendship.
Thank you for coming into my life.
Bringing your warmth and light.
and opening my eyes.
Take care,
I love you and shall see you soon.

3, 3's excludes the forth.

La la let down.
Here again.
Once again.
What’s new.
Fuck shit, old news.
drama and ignorance.
butch annoyance,
petty attempts,
at one night stands.
painted with a coat,
of blunt to brass.
all enraged with a bitter distaste.
Disregard, second to last.
Flee oh flee.
Fed up, leave.
Feel it yet?
like a swift right hand.
How quickly her absence
is realization....
she's already left.
Fast oh fast…
Never looking back.
A lonely empty.
Epiphany…
she now hates you.
Tolerant and patient.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Simple a such.
Yet enough to fuck up.
A sigh and a shrug.
Fed up and worn.
A walk away goodbye.
Followed by familiar scents.
A realized subconscious thought.
Too little..,
Too late.
Too fucking bad.
For this time…
She’s not coming back.
cheers hold true,
for three three's,
excludes the forth.

Down

Rough Demo Song....  i wrote this for a friend <3

Enjoy

obsolete

solo and alone.
independence must come forth.
claim your worth.
for you're on own.
courage, fleet it not.
stand your ground.
hold your head proud.
you've made it this far.
worn and torn.
this world has taken its toll.
a heart battered and bruised.
disappointment rang true.
hope left bleeding open.
trust, a dismissing thought.
a soul not meant for its youth.
innocence raped of its age.
maturity came all too soon.
stead fast and strong.
lassy you've shown em all.
shoulders build broad...
the weight of the world pressing down.
other's mortal hurt you coveted.
for kind are you in your ways.
bare it, you must not.
for you must carry the burdens
of your own weight
loose ends shall come to a close,
in due time...
soon oh soon


words that come with a hurt.

Beats Flow Yah Know

Soooooooooo Good....! She stole my hear back in 2006 and here's a new hit from her 2011 album...!!!

Realization

I was viewing a friend's Facebook Profile and came across this. Its not my work... but a lovely story. Married or not you should read this... For realization sometimes comes all too late.

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“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes....

Emer's Dream....

Gorgeous and divine........ !!!

Irish Ballad.

To whom my plea calls out…
I write to you.
My fair love…
In hopes you shall see.
Perceive…
Feel the depth of me love.
See it there,
The glow and flicker…
The spark igniting in ye heart.
Ignore it not.
Push aside ye doubts.
See it there…
In the warmth of me stare.
A trust so sincere,
Honesty bears…
Genuine care.
Darling dear…
I’m a begging ye, please
Don’t ye dare, shy away from me.
Tis be true…
Be it only you.
Open ye eyes…
For ye heart wanders of blind.
Hold me now.
For mine arms shall surround.
Choirs harmonize in time…
Like the hummingbird’s song.
Hear it now,
The beating of me heart.
Oh how ye flutter about.
While thoughts bout and bounce.
Ye falling in love.
That girl’s on ye mind.
Day and night.
Ye dreams see to speak.
Deny it not.
Here or there.
Mindful or unaware,
Ye looking for her…
Checking ye cell.
Forestalling her call…
Around corner’s reach,
Swear it be,
A voice so distinct and pronounced.
For near or far…
Her fragrance farriers across.
Ore lands and plains.
Mountains and tops.
Ye head spins round.
A taunt and a tease.
Come find me, so it seems.
A hound dog’s trail….
Meant for those.
Whom know of which to seek.
A scent so sweet,
Stigmatized is ye…
For her aromatic presence,
Now lines ye memory.
Foreboding amnesia.
Like trinkets for safe keep.
Comfort is as its serenity…
For tranquility lusts its amity.
Search and seek.
Until ye reach.
By her side,
Words fail to arrive.
Gaze into mine eyes.
A shadowy dark ye shall find.
For calamity speaks of tragedy.
Ill will tainted and painted
With hues meant to subdue.
For there’s a past and a history.
Of toils and snares.
Swing low, my sweet honey dear.
Regard me, me love…
See it there…
A soul, raw and bare….
a tenderness so dear.
Fear it not,
For ye know tis true.
So similar ye are to her.
Disregard t’all irrelevance...
Ignorance tis bliss.
Stand oh mighty proud
Before ye…
Humbly I do…
My love,
My darling dear.
Take me hand…
For me heart is true.
In earnest sincerity.
Hear me now,
For I proclaim…
True love’s abiding vows.
Though plagued with poverty’s cowardice.
I come with empty pockets.
I have nothing to give.
Yet, everything to lose.
A poor working class lass.
Writing poems and ballads...
All I have…
Are promises of love…
And a forever happiness.
Take me hand.
For we shall write our own path.
until the end of time.
Tis you and I.

Sweetheart

There’s a boldness to your beauty.
Leaving suitors hungry and yearning.
A confidence that surrounds…
For charisma is to be found.
Like a siren’s seafaring call.
You hold them all.
Either at pawn piece disposal.
Strike three… choice is yours.
There’s radiance within…
Though tainted by worldly sin.
You’ve hidden and built walls.
Hear it now….
You bear a gorgeous beating heart.
For you define inner beauty.
Sweetheart let fall your army.
Guarded you are…
Not everyone means you harm.
Conceptions scared…
by past and pervious mars.
Heed this lecture.
My darling dear,
Sweet pea
and dearest honey.
For love is the root,
Of all human action,
And mechanical emotion.
Regardless if it is joy or sorrow
Learn to see what you’re looking at.
Before you go looking for…
Who you already are...

Explain It Best

Love comes undone.
For hearts fear to trust,
A past chapter in life.
Proves and writes....
heartache comes with broken pride.
Twas a romance meant to last...
For he promised me just that.
A life we planned out.
Set sail for we had our map.
Dreams and goals we both had.
A coming future written for us.
Should've, would've, Could've...
if only that.
Pray be it,
we were so young.
Headstrong and stubborn.
Neither one willing to bend
or make amends.
agruments flourished.
Temperaments defensive.
though love sought fit
to compromise regardless.
A love never meant,
for goodbyes or concluded ends.
I need not explain...
for where i am.
alone and miserable.
explains it best.

Regard Me

Kind you most certainly are.
to regard me at all.
you listened and seen.
my very being.
took the time to consider.
made the extra effort.
not many care enough.
to acknowledge me at all.
Thus having said...
i'm truly touched.
For now honest tears,
happily, do i let fall.

Weak

Fears ignite.
insecurities burning bright.
turn and run.
disappear from it all.
you're a pro and a con.
to anything meant for more.
roads become unknown.
pray i be strong,
instead....
i've turned my back on it all.

Fool

There's a lot of things.
petty, grand or small.
all in which bring me down.
a burden to my heart.
like how to live life.
in regards to how to be alright...
simple things.
come in various difficulties.
i've forgotten how to smile.
or what its like to try.
i've lost all hope.
motivation fled long ago.
i've forgotten how to laugh.
free and careless.
i've forgotten how to love.
fiercely and true.
i've forgotten who i am.
all because of you....
my happiness falters.
for worldly turmoil harbors.
dangers and snares.
around each and every corner.
ploys and plots.
thought and planned out.
ignorant of me...
to think kindly of so many.
i should have known...
harm would befall me.
for here i am.
at odds end.
guilt stricken and shamed.
a thicket of thorns.
i've found myself entangled.
no use in fighting.
for trying only causes
predetermined failure in the end.
hearts grow cold.
disappointment grows.
save face.
i dare not cry out.
whom shall see...
or come to save.
metaphoric display.
a applaud you, darling dear.
for a fool i most certainly am.

Purity

Purity states.
instant pleasure
followed by guilt and shame.
stricken epiphanies,
fecundity beds with purity
birthing individual effects.

Perceive.

Levels of pain,
tallied and added up.
whom is give claim.
for everyone perceives
at a different pace.

Convenience.

A body of pits.
collect and root fast.
take what you must.
for the dead shan't fight back.
names once entitled,
all these unfortunate people.
seldom do we.
think beyond convenience...

Cowards Way

Turn of events.
leaves me lost, i confess
should i embrace.
past, unexpected pretense.
a choice in whether.
to stay or to leave.
fears of insecure disappointments.
and leaps of petty faith.
history states,
hearts do break.
a tendency in your life.
for you once loved your last.
memories surface again.
plummeting back into your past.

Welcome

Moving on.
shouldn't be hard.
you always knew,
though chose a better truth.
you're left a fool.
hurt and wound.
raw and insecure.
bid farewell.
now welcome a guarded you.

Images.

Eyes haunted and torn.
starving babies lose hope
flesh clings to bone.
for innocence dwells on sin.
destined facts bring light
to certain worldly distress.
for a child dies cold.
hungry and alone.

Utilitarianism

unjust lays littered in flaws.
utilitarianism, a balance among power.

Forsake Me Not.

Forsake me not.
alas, my time has come.
come again grim reaper.
re-carnation be not my keeper
tis an intended end.
a life not meant.
for the kindred hearted.
forsake me not.
alas, my time has come.
come again grim reaper.
leave me in peace re-carnation.

Propinquity

Dear my dearest friend.
I've loved you for so long.
by my side here you stand.
loyal and unyielding
proud, most certainly you are.
words, left unspoken
for you know the depths,
that adorns my being.
seen the darkness flicker to light.
my candle light heart.
so easily did it go out.
yet you kept me aglow.
propinquity in the making.

Slip

A unifying balance.
sum it all together.
pleasure verses pain.
decide upon whichever later,
pros and cons to both.
think now,
for Freudian slips.

Proverb.

Ripple effects, carries over from vast.

2 a.m.

late into the night.
a girl awaits,
for a boy and his smile.
to come walking through her door.
tip toe now...
its almost 2am.
roommates asleep.
scattered snoozing bodies all around.
hush your sounds.
just shut the door now.
she's not one to fuss.
for in her eyes.
she's a simple everyday girl.
nothing more and nothing less.
mildly cares about judgments.
now finds herself,
fretting over this and that.
at last, she gives up...
comfort fits best.
contentment settles in.
let the pleasantries begin.

Let In

Common place greetings.
all day texting.
sketti dinners,
with movies and boozing.
good company.
amateur binging,
blurred visions.
impaired judgments,
leaves some blankly staring.
come to a close.
goodbyes bond by hugs.
waiting in short.
blankets and pillows.
wander in through the door.
along with the wanderlust.
a living room slumber fest.
texts buzz in.
jealousy or annoyance.
a choice to leave or let in.
chance it.
mil-seconds later...
his footsteps glide in.
giggles and tickles.
familiarizing lips and kisses.
5am randomness.
leads to early morning shifts.
grins appear.
for clothes are scattered here and there.
mirrors reflect,
redness upon necks.

meh...

Epiphanies of the night.
flare and burst to life.
like yesterday's night.
lighting did indeed strike.
in the hearts of just one.
for it did on day one.
a suitor so bold.
to search and seek out.
a conquistador you are.
patient and sound.
when found,
conversations went on.
far into the early morn.
all for a petty hearted girl.
intentions meant for kind.
forgive me, for i feared mine.
thoughts and thinkings...
held back,
pushed aside....
for kindly i think of all sin.
fears of over stepping,
unknown and charted boundaries.
dear me...
a push over i am.
turn and run.
i shall.
yet brought round, once again.
obvious is oblivious.
for it is a known fact.
this time i shan't hold back.
just know this...
there's an underlying meaning.
for every moment and time.
you've held me.

Raw

You ignorant fiend.
Hush your lips.
I need not hear.
Your petty woes me.
You speak with disregard.
Inflicting others.
Causing grief.
The damage you have done.
Past and second chance, undone.
You’ve lost my respect.
Come grovel at my feet.
When confronted.
To arms to arms…
Battles wage.
You’re backed in a corner…
Defenses crumbling down.
Funny how you now realize
How fucked you really are.
Look at you now.
drowning in your own disgust.
Play the part.
A victim you think you are.
Darling dear…
You haven’t yet seen my rage.
Nor have you witnessed my hate.
I do not forgive, or forget.
Emotions so raw.
You’ll wither away.

faces and hearts.

jabber jabber. yak yak
laughs float through grease clouded air.
a table with chairs.
occupied by acquainted faces.
a comforting company.
to share and give care.
dinner is served, on trays and sassy air.
a tease and a taunt.
chair pulls out.
a window seat watch.
unfiltered words...
waft over to a girl.
striking a chord.
denial and attempts,
of pushing back.
now surface and overwhelm.
hearts weighted with earthly woes.
break now.
let your tears fall.
hurry, amass.
run,
walk.
escape this crowd.
hastily now,
before someone glimpses
a distorted image.
defined as your true self.
interpersonal hurt...
fears of a coming now.
course of direction,
skewed.
undetermined.
peddle peddle.
breathe deep.
passing street lights.
rounding corners.
late night wanderers.
lungs burn and body groans.
pleading for a pause.
thoughts too wild for a moment's stop.
unintended courage...
leads to darken back roads
sketchy alleys with noises...
back into the light.
dorm room delight.
faces, common and known.
hurry now...
through elevator doors.
grab a towel.
shower off.
music to relax.
ignore squealing facets.
doors open, sea of faces.
well holy fucking shit.
tears emerging once again.
too proud to cry out.
steady yourself. stay strong.
wear the mask...
don't dare breakdown.
say its alright.
hope they just go.
leave me in peace.
there's worry and concern.
adorning perplex faces.
you know they care...
honestly honey dears...
its all internal.
forgive me for my lack.
of communicating and such.
i've been breaking.
my heart's been aching.
one by one...
you search, seek out
confess to clear air.
there's hurt in their eyes.
and guilt in your heart.
another weighing scar.
you never meant for.
they stay...
people gather in.
you wander again.
to watch for lighting's rain.
sing apologies....
rarely do i.
unless sincerity is a must.
comfort in the physical facts.
there's hope in the hearts.
of honest friendship.

classroom daydream

Shutters and shades.
filtered light...
cascade.
shadows sways
obtuse is their game.
across plastic yellowing curtains.
muddled talk...
a buzz and a hum.
sound and drone on...

Bemis.

There's a fire and a flame.
a boldness that adorns his name.
a proud egotistic display.
prominent in every way.
words spoken...
brutal honesty.
blunt and corrupt.
tough love is a must.
gained or found out.
Stand strong,
worldly pushes
cause for grief and gritting teeth.
alarms ring and sound out.
this is the now...
stand strong.

Honey Dear.

Dreams reflect,
surreal wishing if indeed that.
an urge for a yearn.
silent now,
speak not with words.
Freudian slips come clean.
images suggest.
feelings deeper then surface
blush blush.
a perfect content.
a pair so twin like, exact
complimenting interests.
honey dears, just say yes.

Pray, be it no more

Liberating strength.
Fury, bold and irate.
Respect worthy; gained…
Eyes set ablaze.
Driven by an inner folly.
Fueled by tied loose ends…
Bullshit answers in roundabout ways.
A longtime coming.
About damn time dearest honey...
Years spent idly wasted.
Unhappiness, a commonness.
You lost all sight...
fell prey to a void hollowness.
Blindly holding on...
An invisible nothingness.
leaving you cold and alone.
Self-worth gone wrong.
Little regarded, for shame lines the heart.
Reverence held no sway.
Everything you could have had.
Easily to attain…
within a reach’s obtain...
For people you hold, command...
at pawn piece disposal.
An innate power,
Too modest to enact.
Yet, dare none see fit.
Eyes that seduce,
Dark... unyielding.
For such severity…
Leaves suitors yearning.
feelings inapt of thought.
Body communicating its words.
honey dear, just pause stop end.
For a second’s worth more.
Enticing as it is tantalizing.
A forbidden fruit.
Hindsight brings insight.
A known confidence…
Once confined and maintained.
Now flaring to life…
A charisma meant for fame.
Beauty emerges.
A captive embrace.
Changing and shaping.
Everything in sight.
Funny how destined ways…
Surface, take pace.
Context edged, displayed...
Mirrored through reflection’s circumstance
A humanness.
Flaming from the deep.
Hidden, go seek.
For self-esteem was a critique.
Strewing character
Hindering elite
A life put on hold.
Pray, be it no more.
A courage to confess.
Inner emotions…
Settlement if indeed that.
Contentment must be first from second’s last.
Savor a glorious moment.
Hearts glow and give way.

Horse Shit

An irking irritation.
annoyance rising
a tempered madness.
Ironic is its comedy.
Charming, no one’s laughing.
Peeved far beyond belief.
Pulsing exasperation.
Ragged contained breathing.
Rages like waves.
Careful now…
Inner Poseidon’s cause grief.
I’d rather be impaled.
Upon a hot burning poker
Then witness and deal.
With horse shit such as this….

Kindred

Earthly souls reflect
Through sin and human flesh.
Unexpected kindness.
A genuine rarity
For scarcity is its best.
A pleading faith is born…
In fear of a last remaining hope.
Some treasure its depth.
Others rob its innocence.
Humanity strays…
Moral virtues fade to gray.
Disappointment blooms.
In the hearts of hopeless names.
Guarded are they…
For hurt lingers and stays.
See how they carry themselves.
Too proud to let fall.
Eyes a hue darker than most.
A past and history so unknown.
Searching, seeking hidden ploys.
Feel the underlying panic in its gaze.
Motives observed…
Analyzed word for word.
Unearthing a pleasant surprise.
Serendipity is your find.

Patient Content

Sudden turn of events…
Leave you questioning honest intent.
Funny how such occurrence.
Surface and bring to light.
A present now and taint a later then.
Ambiguous is your sureness.
For its all you have left.
Nothing to gain, yet everything to lose.
A pawn to a game…
No one dare play.
Let fall the rest.
Fate know not its next.
Decide your own path.
Leave out the rest.
Straighten up young lass.
There’s a rhyme to your reason.
And a rhythm in each step.
Undefined is your indefinite drive.
Unclear waters…
Hold a mystery to its grandeur.
A fearsome plunge,
For one of a belittling bold.
Surface or sink.
The time has come to an end.
Farewell to easy going flows.
Direct your sails and go.
Beyond unseen shores.
A promised later then.
Awaits a patient content.

Enigma

Emotions explode
Cold and bold.
An inner rage,
Unleashed from its cage.
Pent up hate, corroding at its gates
Reality states.
A present time and place.
Reasons of why and foreboding shame.
Come all too late.
moments cross tainted thoughts
This isn’t what I want.
Just get off.
For fucks sake.
This happens each and every time
Touches, foreign and strange
Poisoned with lips wandering plains.
Up and leave.
Thanks for respecting this plea.
Smile, say no its okay.
Enigma at its  best.
Doors open to a close.
Hurried fingers…
Lock
Click
Twist
Shut.
Safety from exterior spheres.
Rip, peel off.
Shower and reflect.
As screams fall into silence.
Too proud to cry out…
Soak and stand.
scolding liquids pound against your back.
Burn and cleanse.
Rinse unwanted scents.
Rest now.
For your soul has aged a millennium.

Gray Weather

Graying weather,
A brewing madness
Emotions surface.
A hushed silence.
Chilled warm rain.
A tear drop that stains.
Storming clouds rustle about.
Round and round I hear thunder sound.
Ponder me this,
For obvious is oblivious.
Love was never meant for bliss.
Ancient as it is old, a power not meant for souls...
Reverberating its echo, it calls out.
Elements flash and dance across.
Animated skies, there’s a glow and a pause.
take cover creation below.
For Mother Nature pardons no,
Subdued no more...
She smiles a grin.
let loose her ferverous ferocity.
She paints the world with hues so bold.
Her charisma harmonizes to my soul.
Softly now, look upon.
A blurred surreal world.
Maybe then you shall see.
A truer version of me.

A good friend of mine's work.

Heartache

A moment

A memory…

A once was…

A now coming…

A sudden passing.

A fading reverie.

Shifting and churning.

Like gears grinding.

Persistent as it is protestant...

For there is haste in its urgency.

Present events, call for tongues held.

Never a right time or place.

Too much at stake.

Only so much one can take.

Respect and consideration for another being’s sake.

Hush hush are my lips.

Hearts beat at a tempered pace.

For this is more, than a simple friendship.

Could there be a deeper meaning to all of this?

Perhaps this is fate’s way…

Merging miserable souls together as mates.

Is it a farce or a facile…. ?

Can we afford to let fall…

Blindly step out.

Tis but a leap of faith.

Feelings within, convey honest truth and intensions.

For innate coherency implies subtle clarity.

The prospect of a possible romance…

Is just a lustful collaboration for heartache. 

Homeless Has A Name.

What happened in her life.

To make her slip on by.

Or was it a surprise.

My how life seems to decide.

A tangle of curls.

Matted and strewn.

flesh clinging to bone.

face hollowed and thin.

she hasn't eaten for days.

her strength dwindles away.

her pride.

bruised and shamed.

she turns the other way.

A smell, bittersweet.

features adorn with inner grace.

For there’s still beauty within.

though hidden so deep.

a suitcase she keeps.

Reflections reflect.

A present now,

demons from her past...

A pack upon her back.

Nothing more and nothing less.

Just all she has.

Petty Hearts - For Cam

After 15-19 hours of chuck nonsense.... here's a rough demo.

All for you Cam. <3

Compassion

restless a night.
a toss and a turn
repetitive is its motion.
a tiny room, all to large
for someone so small.
goodness oh my...
thoughts fail to subside.
lie awhile...
stare through a darken night...
where city lights dance and flicker...
reflecting outside commotion.
while late night wanders roam quiet street corners.
murmured conversations
hum and buzz, all the way up.
to a 4th floor dorm window.
where silently a lass combats her past.
lifeless upon a cold harsh bed.
deep in her mind... she drones on and on.
inner battles, rage and fight on.
heart's destined for broken.
as tears, she lets fall.
for they burn and sting on the way down.
a world spins round.
forcing her to carry on.
cars honk as sirens sound.
common nature...
impatient people.
for no one cares...
or stops to listen.
aimlessly she wanders...
through lonesome roads and corridors
fumbling to and fro.
she stumbles into rooms,
lively and aglow.
faces anew, turn swiftly towards her.
unexpected listeners.
lend a helping hand
patiently heed her lecture.
kindness lines their hearts.
comfort and honest trust.
few rarely hear, let alone notice silent grieving.
the depth of another's being.
sometimes tainted and painted.
obscured by practiced and artful acting.
until stories surface and tears linger.
mournful a sight, for a petty heart does find...
compassion in unexpected eyes.

Future

I’ve never seen a lover.
Or a mate or a partner.
I’ve never seen companionship
Or even fulfillment.
I’ve never seen a wedding.
Or me married to any.
I’ve never seen a romance.

Why Then

Double take
A second glance.
Taken back.
A silent stance.
synchronized turns.
In the direction of a girl.
Eyes follow…
Smiles appear
she glides through people.
for they clutter before her.
Her fragrance lingers.
A trail for pursuers.
Come find me it urges….

A Soon Coming

Analysis

Simple
Undefined
Pain....
It came with a price.
Loss was unexpected now you’re left disappointed.
You played the part well.
Charismatic and alluring.
Bewitching fools.
A heart breaker in the making.

Fade Back....

Oy

Sicken with disgust.
A clenching fist.
Expressions contort
A heaving chest.
oh a loathing detest.
Disappointment , nothing less.
New inspired rage…
Ignited by shallowness.
A burning madness.
Searing is its kiss.
A ravenous curse.
Time and effort given forth.
Shame upon...
a young and ignorant fool.
All for naught.
Hurt and ruined.
pride bruised.
A lover’s scorn.
nothing more.

Tune of The Day

~ Petty Hearts ~

Bloom

Home

Thus, solitude is found.
To where I belong.
Nostalgia of the heart.
A hollow empty part.
Carry me back.
To when it was easier
Simpler than this.

Comfort

Tired and worn.
Disappointment grows
Spirits beaten low.
hearts turn cold
Losing all hope.
nowhere to go.
Tarry on now.
You’re on your own.
Wipe away your tears
Mend your broken soul.
Let your sorrow show.
You were never meant for this world.

Petty Heart

Moments and time.

Turn on a dime.

Fate saw it not.

Leaving destiny at odds.

Swiftly now…

Watch as it inflicts.

Impaling dignified pride.

Truth settles in.

Downcast eyes turn shamefully away.

I cannot

I cannot foretell the future.
Or what may lie ahead.
I cannot evade time...
Or pray it may pause stop end.
I cannot go back…
Or resurrect those that are dead.
I cannot change what destiny foretold.
Time and time again.

A Part A Puzzle

Complexity in a puzzle.

Conformity in none of its pieces.

All its misshapen fragments

Tell a tale

Tragic or heroic

each angular feature.

Stars

From a far,
upon a bluff.
I’m quite sure…
if you look or listen hard enough.
Over-looking this trivial city
There’s a hush hush
Neither filtered or contained.
Just raw and alive.
Pulsing
reverberating…